Showing posts with label Church and Faith. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Church and Faith. Show all posts

November 7, 2010

Every journey begins with a single step

Colors of autumn discovered at every turn
Ever since I moved to Saint Louis from Berkeley, I've been guilty of reliving the glory days of living in northern Cali. I am unable to resist speaking nostalgically about how great life was back in the Bay Area: the weather is temperate and the landscape is gorgeous; geographical diversity is unsurpassed (imagine being surrounded by ocean, desert, mountains, valleys -- all within a few hours); my loving, caring, attentive church family enveloped me and strengthened me spiritually; my work friends challenged me and supported me intellectually; my social circles gave me relief and joy and laughter and fabulous dinners; the great BART system allowed me to walk and ride everywhere without creating giant carbon footprints; the flagship Peet's Coffee and Tea shop fueled me with high octane coffee; Berkeley Bowl; Cheeseboard pizza; Napa Valley; Sausalito; Masse's bakery... Oh, oh, oh, should I go on...?

Life here in the midwest is nothing like life in California, and sometimes I feel sad that I will take far too long to discover the charm of living in Missouri. Can I see the autumnal beauty of the four seasons? Yes, but can I appreciate these wonders without comparing them to how great it was not having to deal with snow and heat and humidity while living in Berkeley? Are there lovely, kind people here in Webster Groves as in Berkeley? Yes, but I don't know anybody yet! As I'm driving to church, I think about the church family worshiping in Chinatown. As I'm driving to work on campus, I wonder about the students heading to class in another academic institution -- a seminary by the Bay. As I drive to Global Foods, I remember (with great envy) the shops along Shattuck Avenue and Gourmet Ghetto. I wish I could transplant all that here to Saint Louis. But I cannot, and they are long gone...Oh, the days long gone... Oh, the wonders that have ceased to be...

In today's reading from Haggai, we hear the questioning that comes after the time of great turmoil, after everything seems lost and forgotten, when the vague memories of "what had been" has been fictionalized beyond recognition... The prophet Haggai is instructed to ask the people "Who is left among you that saw this house in its former glory? How does it look to you now? Is it not in your sight as nothing?" (2:3).

Even now, while surrounded by yellow, red, and orange trees of beautiful Saint Louis, a small part of me feels like these rich colors of autumn (something I did not often see in NoCal with so much splendor) are nothing, and I still pine for the days of the not-so-distant Berkeleyan past.

But continue on with the Haggai reading, and I hear the reassurance: "[T]ake courage, all you people of the land, says the LORD; work, for I am with you, says the LORD of hosts [...] My spirit abides among you; do not fear" (2:5).

This morning's sermon by our preacher reminded me that it is not the physical building that determines where God is to be found; God is located wherever we do the work of Christ and whenever we share God's love.
Would God be restricted, defined, summoned by a building? Pish posh... You can bulldoze it to the ground  (or, you can stupidly fight and fight against the construction of a house of worship or a community building two blocks away from Ground Zero), but if we continue with God's work, then God will breathe life back into even the driest bones, the emptiest of buildings.

Wherever we are -- whether it be Berkeley or Saint Louis -- the Spirit of God abides among us. We must take courage and explore the new. We must be open to inspiration and rejuvenation. We must be receptive to community and creativity. And we know far too well, don't we, that creativity means there will be upheaval, re-envisioning, change. There must be a shaking of the heavens and the earth and the sea and the dry land (2:6) before "the treasure of all nations" shall come...

Come, Spirit come! Come, Spirit come! Open our eyes; open our hearts... Come, Spirit come!

September 12, 2010

Hide and Seek: Being Found is the Best Part!

Hide 'n Seek Print
When I was young, although I played it quite often with my young church friends, I did not enjoy the game of Hide and Seek. The trouble of searching for well-hidden friends was always too tiresome, and the risk of not being found always made me a bit scared of hiding too carefully. Even scarier was the possibility that my young friends with their short attention spans, having found some other game even more interesting than this one, would turn their attention away from seeking me out from my secure hiding spot, and I would stay so well-hidden that I would be completely forgotten -- left alone to my own devices.

Although the point was not to be "found out" too early in this children's game (it was for some a test of how deceptively they could hide and for how long), for me, the point of the game was in the discovery -- of me! I enjoyed being sought out, and in fact, I was many times relieved to be the first or second person discovered by the seeker. I didn't care too much about hiding, and was often intentionally careless in selecting a hideout.


In this Sunday's gospel reading (Luke 15:1-10), Jesus tells two stories of Lost and Found. I think the poignancy of the story is in the endings of the stories -- the rejoicing that occurs when the lost items are found. It is a collective joy, one in which the whole community participates. I like that emphasis much more than the one that I hear in sermons that I've heard in the past, in which the emphasis is typically placed on the fact that the Seeker (whether it be the shepherd or the woman with coins) never gives up. As listeners of the story, we are reassured that the seeker will always go searching for the lost, no matter how small, no matter how insignificant it may appear in the eyes of others. As the audience of this very familiar story, we are often lulled by the reassurance that Jesus is our Seeker, the shepherd, and no matter how much we stray, we'll be found.

At dinner earlier this evening with some colleagues, we talked about the communal and catholicity of God's universal church -- in essence, we can't be Christians alone. Believing this, I'd like to shift our focus to the seeker not as one individual -- one shepherd or one woman -- but as a community of faithful disciples. Remember the stories? The shepherd "calls together his friends and neighbors" (v.6) to celebrate with him; the woman who lost the coin calls her own friends and neighbors together, inviting them to rejoice with her - not by herself. 

Following their examples, how can we who are the body of Christ be a church that works together to seek out and celebrate the discovery of the lost? And, imagine how much more fun the game would be if we had an entire community of people looking for us, letting us know that we are special, wanted, sought after, desired. The rejoicing would never end. It would be like an infinite Jubilee!

August 26, 2010

The Inquisitive Brother

A few weeks ago, we moved into a different house -- a rental that is considerably larger than the one in which we had been residing. There are twice the number of rooms which need to be furnished, and there is almost twice the amount of yard work that will need to be tended to. I'm not quite certain how we finaggled this deal (using our sweet, charming personalities?), but here we are!

As we packed up glasses, dishes, chopsticks, picture frames, towels, hand soaps, etc., I noted that the lectionary for the week we were moving included the text from Colossians which encourages us (me) to kill the earthly practice of greed ("which is idolatry", v.5).  Add to that, the parable from Luke reminded me that greed is truly seductive (and easily disguised -- helloooo flat screen TV!), and that I need to strive for the simple life. (Cue music for Green Acres.)

The thing is, however, after the first reading of the Luke passage, I understand the young brother's position, and can sympathize with his seemingly reasonable request. Given that inheritance laws favored elder brothers and shafted the younger brothers leaving them to practically fend for their equal shares, this young inquirer's request to Jesus sounds not unreasonable, and at first glance, the brother actually appears to be very fiscally smart -- this is sound planning for retirement. Is it not? And, if you read Jesus' parable of the farmer with the plans for the bigger barn -- doesn't that sound familiar? Like he's got a good financial consultant who's helping him with his assets -- saving up just in case the market crashes?

I've only lived 1/3 of my life, and I'm already told to think about the future: Am I investing aggressively? What's my plan for the future? Why don't I invest in some real estate instead of renting? Etc, etc, etc. [Truth be told, I'm already researching into this great retirement community that I want to join, except that they won't let me join before 65. Alas.]

You might be thinking what is wrong with doing that, wondering why I'm problematizing the move into a bigger house, the concerns for my future. Why question what seems, for all intents and purposes, like really sound fiscal planning?

"You fool!" said Jesus (v.20). [I pity the fool!]

Now, my reading of the situation here is that this fool is as transparent as cellophane, and Jesus was able to see right through this guy's seemingly innocuous question. You might say that this fellow wasn't just asking for his equal share -- he wants stuff! -- and Jesus recognizes this immediately and therefore raises this issue in the subsequent parable about the farmer. So, now we're assuming that the young brother is like the rich farmer. Now, what makes these two worthy of being called "fools"? 

1. He doesn't mention his master financial Counselor at all. No mention of the Source of all his gifts, the One who gives and gives and gives. He acknowledges nothing, and gives no praise or thanksgiving. It's all about him and what he acquired. 
2. He only thinks about himself. No mention of how he might share the blessings which he received. 
3. He seemed focused only on material "stuff" and not what was truly important -- being richer toward God.  

In the grand scheme of things, in the larger webwork of God's kingdom (which we are to strive for each day, each moment), we are to shed all these earthly things. Our lives, as Jesus reminds us, belong to God and we are to be "rich toward God" (v. 21), not be shoring up our earthly assets by shuffling them from house to house (in my case) or from account to account in order to save up only for ourselves. Our lives as faithful Christians should not be about making us comfortable and living off the wealth while there is so much suffering in the world, so much need for us to share the gifts that God has given us -- shared to us for us to share with others!

But, in this day and age, it's not uncommon to see individuals, organizations, and institutions wanting more. We see it around us all the time. And the "more" that we strive for comes in all shapes and sizes. "More" house to live in (alas, alas), more money to spend, more time to idle away, more vacation days to take, more people in our churches, more money in the offering plates, more , more, more... I myself am guilty. In planning our move into the bigger house, we began thinking about purchasing more towels (for the guest bedrooms and the guest baths), more cable TV (guilty pleasure: Food Network!), more furniture for the dining room and the breakfast nook and the upstairs family room, more dishes (in a bigger house, we'll have bigger parties, right? Right?), more, more, more... (I'm also thinking of the UMC's recent campaign to get "more" people in the pews... Read about this here.)


So much excess!! Before I know it, I'm up to my eyeballs in desire for more, and then I hardly know what to do with all the "stuff" that I've acquired, and buried in the midst of excess, I've forgotten what Jesus said:


"Take care! Be on your guard against all kinds of greed; for one's life does not consist in the abundance of possessions" (Lk 12:15).

So, the lesson that I'm being taught, and which I'm learning with great difficulty, is how to let go of the greed, the stuff, the material possessions, and focus myself on being rich toward God. This is what a faithful disciple needs to be -- and perhaps this is one reason why I'm still unemployed and looking for work. As Taylor Burton-Edwards said in his reflection, the lesson is "concrete learning (and unlearning) of specific patterns of behavior". This experience is helping me to rely less on earthly goods and on unlearning my reliance on material riches.

Lord, have mercy, and give me strength! 

July 21, 2010

The Good Samaritan or Pollack on Paint by Numbers

The lawyer was a party crasher who attempted to entrap Jesus in answering:
What is the greatest commandment (he thought he knew he answer to this one)?
Who is my neighbor (maybe he was caught off guard by this question which sort of rose out of nowhere)?

Jesus was telling the lawyer to go out of his comfort zones to find/located/define/acknowledge all who are his neighbors; that is, don't just go to the neighborhood familiar to you or the one already defined, fenced in, prescribed by others; "neighbor" doesn't just mean the person who've known all along, but the person whom you might have never known at all; that is, go into the unfamiliar territory, the space that is not your normal "Jericho road", paths you might not typically travel to discover the new neighbors of your diverse communities

Paint by Numbers: Jesus isn't giving the lawyer the same palette of colors to work with; in fact, he is telling the questioner that there are no pre-drawn lines inside which you have to paint, and the colors can be all mixed -- nothing like matching numbers with colors. Jesus is pulling a Jackson Pollack on this Paint by Number idea: go wild, go out of the expected, go out of the ordinary. Use your mixed media and be creative because in being creative, you are recognizing the God-like potential in yourself, instilled in you by our Creator God.

July 20, 2010

The Cordoba Initiative

An excerpt from a piece by Joe Conason at Salon.com:


To clear the air clouded by all these noxious effusions, it’s important to understand some basic facts about the project — and about the Constitution that Palin, Williams and the rest of the Tea Party movement claim to defend. 
The victims of 9/11 included numerous Muslims, as anyone browsing the memorial sites can see. Most of them were working New Yorkers who labored as cooks, waiters, cleaners and security guards in the World Trade Center — people whose suffering concerned the perpetrators of the attack no more than those of the thousands of other Muslims they have murdered in Iraq, Afghanistan, Pakistan and elsewhere around the world. No religious faith has an exclusive claim on opposition to Islamist terrorism, and no religious group should be excluded or stigmatized in memorializing that opposition. The people who want to build Corboba House have every legal right to do so, and those rights are not subordinate to anyone’s religious prejudice.

The Cordoba Initiative, sponsor of Cordoba House, is an organization that rejects violent extremism and encourages civil dialogue between the Islamic world and the West. So far nobody has found any evidence that Corboba represents a nefarious conspiracy to establish a beach head for Islamism, despite much windy rhetoric devoted to that theme. Moreover, contrary to Lazio’s posturing, New York Police Commissioner Ray Kelly has declared bluntly that he sees no security concerns in the construction of a mosque in that neighborhood. His calm, measured and appropriate response represents the realistic perspective of a law enforcement official who does more to fight terrorism every day than Williams, Lazio or Palin will accomplish in their combined lifetimes.

Finally, the constitutional guarantees of freedom, including freedom of worship, were not suspended by 9/11, despite the efforts of certain politicians and partisans. As Mayor Michael Bloomberg pointed out in defending the Cordoba House project, its opponents are undermining the liberties that define us and distinguish us from our enemies:

"I think our young men and women overseas are fighting for exactly this," he said in reaction to Palin. "For the right of people to practice their religion and for government to not pick and choose which religions they support, which religions they don't." Scott Stringer, Manhattan’s brave borough president, who like Bloomberg happens to be Jewish, challenged her directly in his own tweet: "@SarahPalinUSA NYers support the #mosque in the name of tolerance and understanding. You should learn from the example we set here in #NYC."
To read the entire article, go here.

July 19, 2010

We Gotta Eat Too, You Know

For the better part of Sunday, I was mulling over the sermon that I heard preached at the UMC church I attended yesterday morning. The Gospel lesson was taken from Luke (our oft-times unreliable narrator), a favorite among many, and the story we hear in chapter 10 is about two sisters, Martha and Mary, who are, in their own right, veritable Mistresses of their Domain. The sermon generated so many thought-bombs that at 2am this morning, I started a blogpost.

Whenever I hear this story, I am irritated by the simplistic either-or perspectives that preachers present. More often than not, I'm asked to consider whether I'm more like Mary or more like Martha (and Mary's image is always the more positive one, whereas Martha is depicted more negatively). Although some well-meaning speakers offer "alternative" interpretations of this story in chapter 10 of Luke, I still can't help but think that Martha (and even Mary) gets short-shrifted and therefore her pragmatism is often depicted in a negative light.

I'm not a bible scholar so I don't know how to go to the original text and see if it exegetes itself, thereby shedding some light on the situation. Yet...yet I have to wonder... And isn't wondering what we're supposed to do? Aren't we supposed to talk back to the text? Engage with it, turn it over and over in my minds to see all the nuances?

With this story, my inclination is to believe that Luke got it wrong (perhaps), and that his version of the narrative unnecessarily sacrifices these two women (or at least the depiction of their familial relationships) just so he can teach us a lesson. Sometimes, I think Luke just can't be redeemed. He just gets it wrong somehow.


Some preachers whom I've heard in the past interpret the text as saying that Mary chose the "better" part (v.42, NIV) by choosing to sit at the feet of Jesus. Some interpret the text as saying Mary chose the "good" thing to do (v.42, NKJV) because she chose not to be distracted by multiple frustrations and instead concentrated on one important thing (keeping her eyes on the prize, said one preacher). This is when I wish we could (re)visit the original text (right now I'm wishing I had gone to seminary for this!). Does the text really say "better part"? And "better" than what, and better than whom? What does "better" mean? Does the text really say "Mary has chosen what is best"? What does the author mean? And what do the translators suggest with their different translations?

Some preachers say that Martha chose the "wrong" thing to do. Wrong because she chose not to sit and listen. Wrong because she focused on the material stuff -- the work of this bodily earth -- running about to oversee how things are managed in her home (not unlike what a good admin might do, I think). Not good because she was distracted from her goal, her "prize", from what she was meant to do.

[I've been told that the preacher of an excellently exegeted sermon once suggested that Martha was the figure of the deacon running "in between," ministering in the world not unlike what our deacons are called to do.]

[I'm also having a difficult time refraining from stomping my feet and proclaiming it is UNFAIR that the character of Martha is so often negatively interpreted. She is often presented as a petty, short-tempered, easily distracted busybody who lacked faith and vision. One preacher (re)described it well, though: Mary's sitting there jawboning with Jesus while Martha works like a horse to prepare a meal for them to eat later. Doesn't that sound just a bit unfair? Indeed!]

The sermon that I heard preached yesterday morning suggested that Martha had not chosen "what is best" (v.42 CEV) because she was distracted from what (we think) she should be doing. The lesson to be extracted from Martha's story is that we should not be distracted from our God-given purpose. Look at Mary, we are told, and follow her example. Unlike Martha, Mary knew what she needed to do and did just that, ignoring all others. For not being misdirected, for not multi-tasking, Mary is praised.


But what is Martha's chosen purpose, then? If Martha was to also sit at Jesus' feet and listen to him talk, who would carry the responsibility of overseeing the cooks, ensuring that food arrives on the table in time to eat? While I do not believe Martha and Mary needed to be in the kitchen tending to the water kettle or the bread in the brick oven or the vegetables over the fire (they most likely had help, being mistresses of the domicile), there is still a lot to be managed/overseen in order for a full house to be nourished.  Who would give them the meal they expect to have presented?



Right about now, I hear preachers' voices saying something about being fed with "spiritual food", which is a more better focus than the need to feed our human bodies. This is what many Vietnamese preachers have told me in their sermons. (I hear this a lot when these same preachers attempt to prioritize spiritual hunger over physical hunger, especially when preaching about world hunger and global poverty.) But, no dinner? Let us go back into the Gospels and count how many times Jesus and his disciples broke bread together. How often do they sup in each other's company, do you recall? How often do we hear the Gospels talk about Jesus feasting, eating, dining?

So if they have to eat, then whose lot is it to ensure there is food on the table? As the head of the household, as the manager, the overseer, is it Martha's responsibility to ensure that the household is fed -- guests and all, including all the dirty, burly fishermen disciples?

But the important point is: If there is feeding to be done, isn't it possible for all of them -- Jesus and disciples included -- to pitch in to prepare the meal and then sit down together to enjoy the food and conversation? I'd like to believe that Martha might have had that in mind. We shouldn't simply dismiss the fact that we need to eat (as if it's a bad thing), and we shouldn't simply dismiss the busy-ness or the joys of making a meal. What might have been more interesting was to emphasize the community building, to emphasize family, to present a different vision of what a family or community could do together.

What I  find objectionable is why Martha did not go directly to her partner, her sister, her companion, to ask for help (oh, but, what if she did and Luke didn't tell us that part of the story?!). Because that's what we would do if we were in right relation with each other. If these sisters are true partners who are strong-minded, independent women who have managed a household together, why does Martha have to go to Jesus? Why not address her sister directly? Why this indirect jibe at the sister with whom she has been living for so long? Why complain to the rabbi? Surely she didn't think that he might intercede on her behalf? Or was she indirectly complaining about him, too?

Like I've said earlier, sermons about these two sisters often ask me to ponder whether I would rather be like Mary or like Martha, but neither depiction of the strong, independent women that they must have been (had to have been back in those days) does them justice. While many scholars argue that Luke's gospel advocates women, the poor, the rejected, it sounds to me like Luke is still undermining the sisters' relationship in favor of a seemingly new vision of the kingdom of God. Unfortunately, in Luke, these women are still subjected to a world order in which they are not the mistresses of their domain but are still subservient to a man. (A friend of mine even suggested that we might consider Jesus as having saved Martha by giving her an "out", by giving her an excuse to not be so busy. But, please folks, does she really need someone else, much less a male guest in her own home, to give her an "excuse" to not do work? Why does she have to do this work in the first place? Why isn't it Mary's work? And why isn't this good work?)


It is unfair to separate these two sisters into two separate ends of a spectrum, and it is also unjust to pit one "virtue" against the other. I think it is too simplistic when preachers use Martha as a reminder: a reminder to "stop and smell the roses", a reminder to not busy ourselves with the difficult tasks entrusted to us, a reminder to not be completely overwhelmed by the work that others unjustly foist upon us simply because we are capable. No matter how well-intentioned we are in our interpretations, these reminders more often than not are misunderstood, and the listeners leave thinking (perhaps wrongly) that they should drop everything and just sit at Jesus' feet and listen. In contemporary society, that might be akin to telling everybody to go into the mountains and just sit and listen.

In my opinion, Luke got it wrong, and therefore we get it wrong, too. What I take away from this is the relational aspect of our daily living. How do we live with one another and be in right relationship with each other? If you have a problem, talk it out. Don't go about telling others about your grief, your criticisms, your complaints, hoping that your insinuations will be understood. Be considerate, calm, direct, and discuss our concerns. Do to others what we would have them do unto us. (And in this case, neither Mary nor Martha understood what needed to be done.)

If you wanna eat, and if you want to If you think folks should pitch in and make a meal as a community, then suggest that idea (lovingly, graciously, and firmly). Since we gotta eat, too, highlight the positives that come out of that meal's preparation: you get to enjoy the conversations, appreciate the food and where it comes from, and no one is excluded from the community building. Now that is a true love-feast.

June 30, 2010

I Spy with My Little Eye

Sometimes, you are caught off-guard by the most profound thing, and surprisingly, it had been in front of you all along. 

Earlier this evening, a friend and I were deep in conversation about the usual important things in life -- God, spirituality, work, marriage, careers, etc. -- and my friend suddenly interrupted our discussion to say she just emailed me something that I must see immediately. So I rushed to the computer and downloaded the image that is included here in this blogpost. At first glance, I could not figure out the significance of the photo. I knew she was talking w/ me over the phone while sitting in her car parked at an intersection somewhere in Emeryville, waiting to go buy some pizza for dinner.

"Did you see it? Do you see it in the photo?" she asked.

What was so significant about this particular intersection, I thought. "Nope, don't see it." Am I supposed to see a car or a pizza parlor or...?

It was a 5-second guessing game, and I had no clue what I was supposed to see -- no idea what was already in the picture which my friend saw instantly. And this cluelessness, this blindness, or this searching, was at the heart of our conversation we'd been hashing for the past hour. What is the meaning of what we are doing in life, and where are we headed, and how do we know what we're supposed to do next, and how can we tell what God has in store for us. What is, ultimately, the purpose of our life?

A few months ago, I uprooted my life in the Bay Area and moved to St. Louis. Starting over again has been difficult, especially while I'm still thrashing about in discernment: Did I make the right choice?  Should I have quit my job? Will I find a new job here, and will it be something that challenges me and grows me in positive ways? What am I doing in this city, why here of all places? Even now, I can hardly see "it" in the big picture, barely recognize meaning and purpose in the snapshot of life.

"It's right there. I saw it while we were talking and I had to take a picture. It's on the red and green building."

Ah, silly me. No, I didn't see it. Wasn't looking for it and didn't recognize it in the photo, either. But now, now it was fairly obvious.

The poet Rumi said, "Look at your eyes. They are small / but they see enormous things." With her mind's eye focused on our dialogue, my friend saw meaning in a small thing. I with my little eyes didn't see what to her was too obvious to ignore. The image of the cross on the wall of the building created by the shadow of the electricity pole was a fun coincidence, but now I'd like to think of it as more than happenstance. There we were, in the midst of a rather important discussion, while she was parked at the intersection, a crossroads, for passersby who come and go on small little journeys. In a way, our conversation occurred at a time when we both are metaphorically "parked", for different reasons, as we wait to discern which way is the best way to go, which step is the next step to take.

There, of course, countless numbers of electricity poles in the city of Emeryville, and in the state of CA (and throughout the U.S., I know) but it was providential, coincidental, serendipitous that the sun would cast the right shadow in the right place in the instance when we were talking about searching for meaning in life -- through our faith in Christ, who died on the cross for us, the One who showed us the Way.

I suppose to wrap up this blogpost, I'd have to say that this little photo was a gift to me from a dear friend, a reminder that if only we could stop, pause, and look with our eyes, we can see enormous things which, by the grace of the Holy Spirit, are always with us.

June 27, 2010

Proud Ally on Pride Day

Today, as SF celebrates its 40th anniversary of the Pride Parade, St. Louis also held its own celebration (as I'm sure many other cities have done/are doing). At 10:30ish this morning, we headed to Tower Grove Park and joined a group of Episcopalians who gathered for Mass on the Grass* across the street from St. John's Episcopal. The weather was cooler than yesterday, with frequent breezes, and as we stood under the large elm tree in the park, we listened to the Rev. Mark Sluss preach and to Bishop G. Wayne Smith (of the Diocese of Missouri) who celebrated the Eucharist.

It was a fairly large gathering, and everyone seemed in jovial spirits, ready and willing to gather for worship. We held a full service, with everyone standing, despite the warmth and humidity. We heard the Gospel being read, and deacon Sluss gave the short homily and then we sang rousing songs of faith after the prayer of intercession were given. We then lined up to receive communion in very orderly fashion, with no jostling, pushing, or shoving. It brought back many fond memories of being in the Bay Area.

The one irritation that we endured was the uninvited guest who stood behind us throughout the service. This gentleman was dressed in clerical collar, and while brandishing his Bible like a talisman and shield, shouted at our backs some rather strong words that were meant to convict us to repent of our sins. He said things like "God will kill you" and God will "bring you back to life" if we only turned from our sins. Without knowing anything about any of us, about any of our faith tenets or beliefs, he admonished that God will make "straight what is crooked" and will cleanse sins, etc, etc.

I think he wanted to preach us back to the straight and narrow, and he was very vehement in saying the things he said. To him, every single person standing in that crowd was a sinner, and we needed to be saved. Many people in the crowd were quite irritated; one man muttered "I wish I had a be-be gun", suggesting he wanted to shoot this guy away from this place. The majority of the people who stood up nearer up front ignored the man and chose to focus on the service. Others who were in back of the crowd sang much louder and spoke much more strongly as the service progressed. It was, I assumed, one way of speaking out. It was our way of drowning out his words of hate with words of affirmation and reconciliation.  The man's voice was loud, for sure, and his voice carried further than even the microphones from up front. But we all strained to listen to the prayer after Communion, and I found myself boldly and confidently joining in the chorus of voices praying the following:

God of abundance, you have fed us with the bread of life and the cup of salvation; you have united us with Christ and one another; and you have made us one with all your people in heaven and on earth. Now send us forth in the power of your Spirit, that we may proclaim your redeeming love to the world, and continue forever in the risen life of Christ our Savior. Amen.


At the beginning of the service, I was quite irritated at the man. Of all the places available throughout Tower Grove Park, he selected this location to preach his gospel, which he tried to pass off as the Gospel of God's unfailing Love. I wanted him to leave, to let us worship in peace. Many times, I was tempted to go to him and ask him -- politely -- to leave. Then, as we began to sing the song "I Love to Tell the Story," it occurred to me that perhaps this is what is meant to happen. Perhaps this is what it means to be challenged in our faith. Living as Christians, serving as faithful disciples, means that we must wrestle on a daily basis with the ignorance and intolerance of the world, and triumph over them as Christ has shown us to do. We are "sent forth in the power of the Spirit" to do what? To proclaim the redeeming love of God to the World. Unlike the man shouting negativities at our backs, as followers in Christ's footsteps, we are to tell the story of love, peace, justice, and reconcilation. We are not just to ignore the stories of hate but to replace them, rewrite them, with something far more restorative and uplifting. It would be easier, much easier, to tell our stories when no one is shouting hate words at us. Yet we are not asked to retreat from the world, to scurry away from people like this man who has warped God's message of love, acceptance, and reconciliation. We are not told to ignore and walk away, but to engage, discuss, reconcile, and transform. We counter words of hate and prejudice with words lifted from songs and stories of Jesus and His love.

As I recall today's scene in the park, I think that man was uninvited but not unwelcomed. Many people came over to speak with him; even the rector of one of the Oasis congregations came to talk with him. No one manhandled him, no bashed him, and I'd like to believe that we treated him more graciously than he treated us. I don't know what was said between him and the other folks, but we might have done better to invite that man to join us at the Open Table. Perhaps some of the folks who came to talk to him did invite him to partake of Communion, and he might have refused. I'm not certain, but I do know that he was vigilant, unrelenting, and strongly convicted by what he believes in -- and he probably didn't believe in breaking bread with us!

After the service, we all departed to take our places in preparation for the parade. My sister and I walked along our own path down Grand Avenue, and cutting across the hot concrete street, we strode into Pho Grand to grab a bite to eat. We later joined the crowds lining the streets to welcome the parade, catching strands of multi-colored beads, t-shirts, wrist-bands, frisbees, etc. After about an hour or so, we walked away from the crowds to head home, and I remembered the man from earlier this morning. I wondered if he was still out there by the parade grounds, trying to preach his gospel to passersby. I wondered if he heard and understood the words that we heard ourselves -- words of opening hearts, words of great fellowship of love, words of disciples of faith joining hands. I hope that he picked up some of those colored beads today, perhaps to remind himself that God's creation is full of richness, depth, and color.

* Mass on the Grass is a ministry of Trinity Episcopal Church in St. Louis and is sponsored by the Oasis Congregations of the Diocese of Missouri: Christ Church Cathedral, St. Louis; Church of the Transfiguration, Lake St. Louis; Church of the Advent, Crestwood; St. Mark's, St. Louis; Episcopal Campus Ministry, Washington Univ; Hope, Columbia; Trinity Kirksville. Supporting congregations were St. John's of St. Louis and Church of the Holy Communion, University City.

May 5, 2010

A New Earth

This past Sunday, we read in Revelations 21 the vision, as recorded by John, of "a new heaven and a new earth". Using this text, the pastor at Grace UMC began his sermon by speaking about the World Fair which opened on May 1st in Shanghai, and compared it to the World's Fair that was held in St. Louis in 1904.

Whether it be 1904 or 2010, the World Fair is designed to bring the world, all the new technology of the world, right to the ends of our fingertips -- across the street, down the block. The newest technologies, the most radical inventions, the most impressive signs and symbols of progress and change -- all brought together in one place.

And whether it be 1904 or 2010, despite all the technology and progress, despite all the new inventions and machinery, there is still poverty, sickness, and disease. There is still hunger and famine, death and terror.

So, despite each year's showy displays of progress and change, we are still facing the same problems that we faced hundreds of years ago. And perhaps the problems we face now are even worse than before...

The preacher ended his sermon with a rousing call for us to build a new kingdom. But I left feeling unsatisfied.

How, then, do we build for a new world? How do we as individual Christians and as faithful communities work together to bring forth the Kingdom of God? How do we affect change? How can we be/bring the change we wish to see in this world?

John's revelations says that the first earth and the first heaven will be disappeared, be things of the past, and that "there will be no more death, crying, suffering, or pain". Despite all the new technologies that we humans have created, there is still suffering and pain, such as the recent BP oil spill in the Gulf, or the bomb scare in New York city, or the killings in Mexico, or the earthquakes in Haiti, and the flooding in Mississippi, or... oh, so many tragedies!

How DO we build a new world, a new earth and a new kingdom? How can we be witnesses of God's love, grace and mercy? How do we work as a faith community to heal the world in which we live?

Here are some examples:


  1. Right here in St. Louis, several thousand people gathered at an immigration rally hosted by the United Methodist Women to speak for immigrant, civil, and human rights, for  justice, equality, unity. All those who gathered raised their voices demanding fair and equal treatment of all persons by our government, all governments, regardless of race or country of origin. 
  2. The youth group of Grace UMC which I have been visiting for the last few weeks has raised enough money to sponsor a little child in the Phillipines, to help her with schooling. 
  3. At my old home church in Oakland, there is a vision of building a new orphanage in Kumi, Uganda. A group of dedicated believers hosted a benefit dinner last week and raised several thousand dollars to contribute to the construction. Check out the blog. 
  4. This Saturday, May 8th, is the day of the Stamp Out Hunger Food Drive organized by the National Association of Letter Carriers. All we have to do is put non-perishable food items in a bag and place it by our mailbox. Our letter carrier will pick it up and deliver it to a local food bank or pantry. 

There are a million other things we can do to bring about change. Instead of just generalizing that we can bring about change, we need to take serious action.

What is happening in your hometown or city that will affect positive change? Name them, acknowledge them, and encourage one another to do more. What are YOU doing to help build the Kingdom?



[Source for photo of rally]

May 3, 2010

Phone Booth Churches?

In early April, I attended the annual spring Convocation at Eden Theological Seminary in Webster Groves (of St. Louis), and listened to lectures given by the world-renown Phyllis Tickle and famous scholar, teacher, writer, and speaker Diana Butler Bass (both of whom have their own websites, yah).

[If you have not had a chance to do so, I recommend that you now read Bass's books:  especially A People's History of Christianity and Christianity for the Rest of Us.]

It was interesting to hear both women speak (with some differing perspectives) on the same topic: "Church Next". Apparently, they've done this a whole lot -- speak at the same conference, in the same city, and in the same speaking order (in fact, they did the exact thing a month before with a bunch of Episcopal bishops).

Phyllis Tickle gave what I'm told was a typical Tickle Talk -- informative, provocative, far too generalized. She gave us a sweeping overview of social and cultural changes within (I want to say) 45 minutes, going from the beginning of Time through to the 21st century, projecting into (dare I say) the 25th century. One central point that I remember from the talk was her emphasis on how people in general are not religious in the old way. We must be aware of the virtuality vs physicality of the worship experience in the 21st century, Tickle said. To back this up, she cited that in 2009, 70 million people experienced worship virtually (although she did not state a source). Tickle suggested that given the rising number of people who would prefer the virtual worship experience, such as worshiping at secondlife.com, church praxis and polity must change to reflect this new virtuality.

After hearing Tickle speak, as a conference attendee, as someone who used to work in an Episcopal seminary, and as a practicing, faithful United Methodist, I was more intrigued by some of the issues (questions, statistics, history) that Bass raised in her talks.

Most significantly, I loved her phone booth story. The gist of it is this:

Back in the old days, before iPhones and Blackberrys and Droids, there was thing invention called the phone booth. People used these small cubicles that had been set up in public places so that they could make phone calls, to communicate with one another. Nowadays, unless you were in London or somewhere in the U.K., you probably won't see a phone booth much. You'd be hard-pressed to find a phone booth in an airport. And a phone call will definitely cost more than 10 cents. If we were to chart the development and usage of public phone booths in the U.S., it would be in decline... way, way down.

Do we then look at that chart, gasp, and say that Communication is dead? Talking is no more? Does that trend mean that people no longer communicate with one another?


If anything, we are bombarded with multiple ways of communicating with one another. We communicate in and through so many different modes, languages, forums, and media that sometimes we forget how to be in solitude and in quiet. Our teens now "talk" more with two thumbs (on a blackberry) and one pointer-finger (on an iPhone) than we did sitting in a phone booth. The more handheld devices there are in the world, the more we are bombarded with options for communicating with one another.

Let's take the phone booth example and think about it in terms of God's church.

There are a lot of churches that are experiencing "membership hemorrhages". They might say this is an erosion of religion, think that we are witnessing the end of religion, that we are suffering from deadened faith. Statistics that are cited often proclaim that there is a "downward drift of congregational vitality", and that people no longer believe in God.

So there is a desire to pull people back into these cavernous cathedrals and empty parish halls. In the Vietnamese National Caucus of the UMC, and of the Southern Baptist Convention, enormous effort is put into designing annual conferences and conventions that address issues irrelevant to the contemporary Christians' daily faith. When the youth don't come, and when the young professionals don't attend, the leaders of these organized institutions bemoan the fact that the young people no longer believe in God or church.


Bass began her talk by citing some very interesting statistics (drawn from Pew US Religious Landscape, ARIS, FACT, Gallap, Barna, and others), and at the outset cautioned us to read these numbers with care and awareness of the context and cultural changes that these quantitative numbers often conceal. She reminded us, rightly so, to remember that any data which might point toward an erosion of belief in God might also be a result of terrible poll-taking practices. More importantly, we must be aware of contexts.

Truth is, people have more choices in how to worship, and they are seeking more choices in how to worship God. Generative Christianity, or Emergent Christianity, is less about the death of the institutional church, is less about the decline of organized institutions with dogma and budgets, and is more about the emergence of new forms, new traditions of religion.

Or, better put, it is about a return to the original definition of RELIGIO, what Bass describes as a return to the experience of the Divine. People are attempting to go outside of the language, rites, rituals, and forms of traditional religion... seeking, searching. For us, now, we need to recover the insights our ancestors had in order to move forward. "Church Next" means we need to turn back  in order to move ahead. It does not mean we do the exact same things our ancestors did, cautioned Bass. We do not build phone booths to increase/improve communication. Not bigger ones, not air-conditioned ones. Not even ones with digitized phone books and Powerpoint screens.

One of the statistics that Bass presented was about faith mixing. The stats indicated that 35% of people polled attend multiple places of worship. (I would be in that 35%.) They attend multiple places of worship in order to meet their religious and spiritual needs; many attend because of spouses who practice different faiths.

I have often described myself as a religious hybrid. I am a United Methodist lay speaker who loves the rites of the Episcopal church who has roots in the CMA church as well as the Southern Baptist contemporary worship scene. When I lived in CA, I worshiped with Episcopalians during mid-week chapel, and I worshiped with an intergenerational, multi-ethnic, multi-racial UMC on weekends. Since my arrival in St. Louis, I have attended services with Lutherans, Evangelicals, Methodists, Episcopalians, and Baptists.

Some might say that I am a diluted Methodist, a bifurcated member of the UMC. Some of my more conservative relatives probably pray for my soul regularly since they think I've lost my foundational faith.

I stand by my religious hybridity. I have membership in a UMC, but I am enriched by worshiping with other faith communities. I hold onto core faith values as described in the UMC Book of Discipline, and relish the concrete practices of other denominations that allow me to uplift my complex and diverse understanding of discipleship and spirituality. I have a creed. I tithe and pledge to my church. Therefore, I am even more careful in seeking a faith community that allows me to imagine (re-traditioning?) the past and recreate (re-interpret/remember) the future.

Two Sundays ago, I had the opportunity to worship at a nondenom megachurch somewhere near Grand Rapids, MI. This church calls itself a cornerstone church, and recently built a $12 million structure. Driving into the parking lot, I get the sense that I'm going to the mall. There are parking lot attendants directing traffic in between orange cones. Entering the building, I see a booth for Guest Services, and I see a Coffee Bar. There are restrooms for men and women almost every 500 yards, just like in an airport and even better than a mall. I see people seated at round tables like in food courts of shopping centers, and it feels like I'm not even at church. Then it hits me. That's the whole point! They wanted me to feel like I'm NOT in church, that I can be relaxed and comfortable, not like I'm in a stuffy cathedral or worship house. The greeter at the door to the worship center tells me we can bring in our coffees because the worship center has chairs with cupholders in the arms just like a theater.

It would be unfair and hypocritical for me to make disparaging comments about this particular church, because clearly thousands of Michigan residents love this church. They worship here, they actively participate, and they pledge to this church. This is where they come for a worship experience, and for community. They see this church as a "step up" from the old, empty, cavernous cathedrals (in fact, the preacher that day compared Cornerstone to a cathedral in England, noting how nobody worships in cathedrals, but Cornerstone was thriving and increasing in numbers.)

That Sunday, I felt like I walked into a $12 million phone booth. I did not even feel like I was entering a sacred space for worship. The service was over one hour long, and there was not one reading from scripture.  As long as no one tells me this is the one place, the only way, the only option for me as a faithful Christian to practice my faith, then I can understand that there are others who appreciate this phone booth church.

Clearly, in regard to worship experiences, we all have our own preferences. We worship, we pray, we sing, we eat together, we break bread together, and we re-member who we are as God's children. And children like to play in different phone booths.

March 18, 2010

Prayer Quilt: Sent Forth with Warmth and Prayers

On my last Sunday at church, in sending me forth into the midwest, my beloved congregation presented me with a gorgeous prayer quilt. The women (and perhaps men?) had worked very hard and quickly, I imagine, to piece together this quilt. Their dedication, commitment, love, and tenderness overwhelms me.

Each time I look at this beautiful creation, I remember that:

(1) these very talent people had pooled together their God-given skills to make this quilt for me (as they did in times past for many others as part of our prayer quilt ministry);

(2) this precious gift is only one manifestation of, one embodiment of all the love, prayers, hope, encouragement and joy that I experienced at this church, and which they were sending forth with me as I begin a new journey;

(3) the colors and materials are perfect for me -- in design and in theme -- and they probably knew exactly that about me (plus, the pattern is the exact same pattern that was used to make my sister's preaching stole which the church gifted her when she departed for St. Louis); anywhere else, this sort of knowing could only be hoped for, and received humbly

(4) each knot on this quilt (shown on the 1st photo and the 3rd-to-last photo) was tied by a well-wisher, a friend, a loved-one from this community and therefore, I am tied to this faith family in more ways than one;


On that day, all choked up with tears and overwhelmed with emotion, I joked that thin as it is, this quilt might not keep me warm in the cold St. Louis weather.

The truth is, every time I touch this quilt, I am overcome with emotion, and, to borrow John Wesley's words, am "strangely warmed" by the love that this church family has shown me. All these years in the presence of these people of genuine faith have changed me in such mysterious and wonderful and challenging ways -- for the better, for the good. This quilt keeps me warm, but it also fills me with love, joy, and wonderment for having been a part of this community.

I am grateful for this church, for God's love shown through this church. As I said during the Sundays preceding my departure, I hope we will remain connected (after all, we Methodists are a "connectional" church!). I hope we will think of each coming and going, each arrival and departure, as new ways of the Holy Spirit working within us, amongst us, and through us.

Let us pray for one another as we move into new spaces and answer different calls to ministries elsewhere in the world. Pray that our challenges will strengthen us and bring us closer to one another through the Spirit of God's mysterious ways.

Once again, to borrow e.e. cummings' words:





here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)





*For full text of the poem by e.e. cummings, visit the PoetryFoundation.org

March 17, 2010

Psalm 23 Li Xi

Although I'm unable to read Chinese (neither ancient nor contemporary Chinese), I still cherish this little red lucky money envelope that I received on my last Sunday at our church in Oakland Chinatown.

It was a gift given to me by the board of admin and trustees of our church, on behalf of the entire congregation. Inside was a monetary gift for which I am grateful, but more valuable and important to me was the fact that both our senior and our associate pastor had searched far and wide for this very special red lucky money envelope. I am incredibly lucky, to say the least.

As some of you know, the traditional lucky money envelope comes in all shapes, sizes, colors, and textures. (The traditional red represents luck, good fortune, wealth.) Some of you already know why red envelopes are given, and on which occasions. For me, for this particular event, the church wanted to give me a little luck and a lot of blessings on my new adventure. So, our pastors found a red lucky envelope on which is inscribed the words (in Chinese) of Psalm 23 in the shape of a chalice.

Chalice, vessel, goblet: a drinking vessel with a foot and stem; the eucharistic cup from which we drink, reminding us Christ shed his blood to make us united as one, to re-member us into the body of Christ.

February 10, 2010

One Voice of Faith: Point 7 Now

Join Point 7 Now for a catalytic convening of religious and interfaith leaders and activists from across the country for networking, education and advocacy for the fulfillment of the United Nations Millennium Development Goals.

National Interfaith Conference on Global Poverty
April 20-21, 2010
St. Mary's Cathedral, San Francisco, CA
info@point7now.org

Come join diverse faith communities united in calling for the end of poverty!

January 27, 2010

Lent 2010: Meditations and Reflections on the Baptismal Covenant

As I begin thinking about the upcoming Lunar New Year, I am reminded that following close on the heels of the Tiger (Tet Canh Dan) is Ash Wednesday (February 17th) and the liturgical season of Lent. There is much to do, and even more to meditate on. For those who are interested, I offer a series of weekly meditations and reflections which I crafted by combining our baptismal covenant with our church's selected Focus Scriptures for each Sunday of Lent. Consider reading the text first, and meditate on it daily throughout the week (you might also try the practice of lectio divina). Consider how you might weave this reflection time into your chosen faith ritual throughout the Lenten season.

To see all lessons from the Revised Common Lectionary for the entire Lenten season, visit the Vanderbilt Divinity Library here.

1st week of Lent: Feb. 21st – Into the Wilderness/ Luke 4:1-13

Do you renounce the spiritual forces of wickedness, reject the evil powers of this world, and repent of your sin?

Share and discuss one or two examples that you have witnessed in your life which you might define as “evil powers”. How have you experienced these negative forces at play in your life? What tools might you draw upon to renounce and reject these forces of wickedness and evil powers? Where have you experienced the “desert” of your repentance?

2nd week of Lent: Feb. 28th – Luke 13:31-35

Do you accept the freedom and power God gives you to resist evil, injustice, and oppression in whatever forms they present themselves?

In this week’s focus scripture, we hear Jesus refer to Jerusalem as the city that violently rejects its prophets and visionaries. In our baptismal covenant, we are asked to accept, not reject, the power which liberates us to live fully as children of God, and to accept the freedom that calls us to create a just, peaceful, and joy-full world of equality. Share an example of a time or place where/when you experienced the overwhelming power of God’s love, mercy, and grace in your life; Give thanks for this experience. Name one or two examples of obstacles or challenges that stand in the way of your resistance to evil, injustice, and oppression; Lift them up in prayer.


3rd week of Lent: Mar. 7th – Isaiah 55:1-9

Do you confess Jesus Christ as your Savior, put your whole trust in his grace, and promise to serve him as your Lord, in union with the church which Christ has opened to people of all ages, nations, and races?

We can often find saints in our lives who fully embody the Love and Mercy of God as exemplified and fleshed out in Jesus the Christ; these are the people who promise to serve God all their lives, in different ways; or, perhaps in only one or two instances, they demonstrated God’s grace. Share and discuss one or two examples of people whom you know to demonstrate unfailing trust in God. How have they witnessed to you and to others about God’s faithfulness, God’s abundant blessings? In prayer, give thanks for their presence and lives. God invites all who are thirsty to “come to the waters” (Is 55:1). In which areas of your life have you experienced unquenchable thirst? Lift up in prayer a time when you might have heard such an invitation. In what ways might you as a person of faith re-iterate/re-issue such an invitation to others, or help them recognize and respond to such an invitation to come receive the life-renewing waters of baptism?

4th week of Lent: Mar. 14th – Lost then Found / Luke 15:1-3,11b-32

Will you nurture the children of God in Christ’s holy church, that by your teaching and example they may be guided to accept God’s grace for themselves, to profess their faith openly, and to lead a Christian life?

This week’s focus scripture presents, on the surface, a narrative of a parent who welcomes home a child with feasting and celebrating, demonstrating forgiveness and loving grace. Share one or two examples of when you experienced a sense of being loved and accepted as a child of God. Give thanks for those experiences and for those who embodied for you God’s compassion. In our contemporary context, how might you as a member of Christ’s holy church “nurture the children of God”? Our baptismal covenant asks us, as Christians and as Methodists, to enrich the lives of others through our teaching and by example through our living. Are there people whom you know who might welcome the chance to “be found”? Lift them up in prayer.

5th week of Lent: Mar. 21st – Doing New Things / Isaiah 43:16-21

Will you remain faithful members of Christ’s holy church and serve as Christ’s representatives in this world?

As members of God’s global faith community, we are called to hold lightly onto our traditions and beliefs, and we are also asked to steadfastly change the world for the better – to seek justice, equality, peace. By striving to show God’s love, justice, and mercy to the world, we are God’s church. Wherever you have been, and wherever you are headed, how have different communities of faith transformed your life? Pray for the communities of which you are a part, and also pray for the communities that you have moved from. Isaiah’s text in 43:16-21 recalls the exodus from Egypt, when the Lord “made a way through the sea”, by essentially carving “a path” not on land but through water. Constructing such a new thing, and traversing that walkway, takes miracles and faith. Share and discuss one or two examples of when you, as Christ’s representative, attempted a new thing. Pray for courage, energy, and faithfulness as you continue to represent God’s church in this world.

6th week of Lent: Mar. 28th – Luke 19:28-40 (Palm or Passion Sunday depending on which lectionary text you decide to focus on)

Do you, as Christ’s body, the church, reaffirm both your rejection of sin and your commitment to Christ?

As disciples of Christ, sometimes we are asked to fulfill tasks that appear, to us and to others, as quite absurd – not unlike the situation of the disciples who were asked to go find a colt for Jesus to ride on (Luke 19:28-40). To complete these tasks, to commit to accomplishing our work in bringing forth God’s good news, we often must address what others perceive as ridiculous or meaningless. Have there been times when it is difficult to remain committed? Have there been times when commitment requires, for you and for others, too heavy of a sacrifice? Discuss, then lift them up in prayer. For our faith community, in what ways might we as a group reaffirm our commitment to Christ? Pray for strength and vision so that you can join in with “the whole crowd of disciples” who are eager and ready to “praise God in loud voices for all the miracles” (Lk 19:37).

Easter Sunday: April 4th – John 20:1-18

Will you nurture one another in the Christian faith and life and include one another in your care?

For many of us, the spiritual journey may appear like it is a solitary one. It is not unusual to think that we must walk the path -- however circuitous, however fragmented -- as individuals seeking our own communion with our Creator. At times, it might even seem strange to think of traveling the road communally, as a member of a diverse faith family. Our selected text for Easter Sunday comes from John, and in it, we are reminded of the band of disciples who, upon hearing the shocking news that Jesus's body was gone, had trickled one by one by two by threes toward the tomb where Jesus had been buried. This scene, in whatever way you imagine it, is echoed by the question of our baptismal covenant, asking us to nurture and include one another in our quests for truth and hope. As members of a faith community, we are invited, nay, challenged, to attend to each other, to nurture and provide, to protect and not exclude, to share and to encourage. The desert of our repentance, our pathways to the new and the truth, need not be solitary. In seeking, we must also share -- like the disciples who grabbed one another saying, "Come, see for yourself..." Think of one or two individuals, or perhaps one or two communities, that recently transformed your ways of journeying. Lift them up in prayer.

November 27, 2009

Prayers of the People

Today being Thanksgiving, I felt it appropriate to post a prayer which was lifted up in petition during our worship service last Sunday. While it was offered up as a litany for the whole congregation, I think it would also be apropos for individual prayer. (The form is taken from the Methodist litany of intercession, which has roots in the Anglican tradition.)


God of Grace,
we give thanks to you
for the family immediate and extended,
all of whom are known intimately by You;
we lift tem up now in name
to remind ourselves of your surrounding love
as embodied by them through your Spirit

God of Grace,
we give thanks to you
for the circle of friends, companions, and coworkers
with whom we break bread;
we name them now as reminders
to one another of your blessings
of companionship and faithfulness

God of grace,
we give thanks to you
for the world you have entrusted in our care;
we are mindful of the earth,
and of the abuse she has endured
under our stewardship,
eroding mountains,
polluted the air,
drilling the crust,
poisoning the waters;
we give you thanks for the new opportunities,
still, to be better stewards of all your creations
so that together we and all the earth
can praise you with our very existence

God of Grace
we give thanks to you
for all our clergy and for all our lay leaders
to whom you have given vision
and passion to answer your calling,
for Pastor Peter, Pastor Emily,
for our Bishop Brown,
for Bayview District Superintendent Extrum-Fernandez,
and for all others whom we now name

God of Grace
we give thanks to you
for all our government leaders
who will lead us uinto a new century
of peace, justice, and equality,
for leaders of the G8
and all the United Nations,
for President Obama and his family,
for V. President Biden and his fmaily,
and for all other world leaders
whom we now name

God of Grace
we give praise and thanks to you
for the chance to rebuild lives
and homes for the survivors
of disasters and tragedies
at Fort Hood, China, Taiwan,
Samoa, Phillippines, Tongan nation,
Louisiana, India,
and other that we now name

God of Grace
we give praise and thanks to you
for your mercy, love, and faithfulness
throughout the ages;
we your people cry out in joy
in anticipation of your coming;
show us how to help one another see
signs of your Spirit at work within us

All this we pray in the name of the One
who showed us the Way, Jesus our Christ,

Amen.

On the earth distress among nations...

How goes it with my soul during this Thanksgiving season? As I've said before, my journey to pray the hours using Thomas Merton's A Book of Hours continues to be fulfilling, and challenging, during this time of year when there are so (too) many things to do. I remember to pray at the Dawn hour, at mid-Day, at Dusk, and in the Dark hour, and this ritual has helped center me in many ways, calling me to tune into the special moments at work, at lunch, at rest, etc. This attentiveness to the ordinary reminds me of the chapter in the book Seeds of Faith in which we are asked to practice prayer in ways that rejuvenate us.

A few Sundays past, one of the lections invited me to reflect on the power of prayer, and most pointedly, Hannah's prayer. The readings started me thinking of how I normally pray, and how fervently I do pray. Is it a primary part of my daily ritual? Is prayer even a part of my daily ritual?

In addition to reflecting on the ways in which I pray, I also began focusing more closely on how Eli mistakes Hannah's praying as drunkenness. After she feasts, Hannah prays, but does so silently. Because he is only reading her lips, and because he misread the context of the feast preceding her prayer time, Eli chastises Hannah for displaying drunkenness. How interesting that a priest, a man of God, would make such a mistake. Unable to see Hannah's deep sadness and intense distress, Eli tells her to put away her wine. How long does it take for a holy man to fall out of Love and out of Grace in such a way that prevents him from reading the signs? Perhaps it had been far too long since he last witnessed such earnestness in prayer. Perhaps it had been too long since Eli had experienced anything similar to Hannah's suffering. Perhaps he had forgotten how to recognize sadness.

This week's Gospel reading invites us to pay attention to signs, to not be lulled into passivity and complacency, to stay awake, to take note that "worldwide suffering accompanied by unstoppable cataclysm...marks the promised redemption (GBOD Worship). In Luke chapter 21, the people are told that the signs pointing to the new world, new kingdom, are quite different than what they expect. If they do not stay awake and attentive, they will misread the signs. And perhaps they will not only lose focus, but will miss the signs entirely.

As I mull over this text, I keep thinking back to the movie "2012" which I saw recently. Like many other movies of the cataclysmic-end-of-world genre (e.g. "Day After Tomorrow", "Armageddon", "Deep Impact"), 2012 also deals with signs. It begins with signs pointing to the earth's ecological destruction and ends with signs of renewal, rebirth, humanity (or attempts to gesture towards an ideology of justice, peace, equality, love). There are, of course, characters in the movie who are identifiers and interpreters of signals -- both the environmental/ecological signals and the other, more intangible signs of community, life, humanness. What's interesting is this: whether they are attempting to read signals emitted by the earth (recognized by massive, destructive earthquakes and tsunamis), or they are reading subtler, more nuanced behaviors demonstrating a certain kind of compassion, some "get it" (the signals) from the very beginning (the Woody Harrelson character maybe? or the scientist protagonist?) and attempt to broadcast/interpret what they see. Some don't "get it" until the very end (there are several characters that I can think of in the moview, but I'm also remembering Eli who finally understands Hannah's situation). No matter what, there is always a messenger, a voice calling out in the human desert, interceding on behalf of others, on behalf of humanity.

For me, the challenge this week is not in reading the temperatures to gauge whether the earth will explode, or whether the ice caps will melt causing tsunamis, or whether earthquakes in California will send me floating out into the Pacific. I'm unable to read the stars or the sun or the moon.

For me, the invitation is to pay attention to the human signals, those emitted and transmitted by the people around me/us, who are oftentimes difficult to understand. It is, in a way, similar to Eli attending to Hannah's signs of distress, finally being able to recognize her sad countenance which was later transformed after her prayers were interceded by Eli. The community within which I live, work, and play provides the barometers to which I/we should attend. Those are the signs telling us there is food to be served, there is hunger to be fed, there is disease to be cured, there is homelessness to shelter. There is compassion to be shared and experienced.

Be alert at all times, praying that you may have the strength...

November 21, 2009

A More Perfect World

"This beautiful natural world is a loving gift from God, the Creator of all things seen and unseen. God has entrusted its care to all of us, but we have turned our backs on God and on our responsibilities. Our neglect, selfishness, and pride have fostered:

+ pandemic poverty and disease;
+ environmental degradation, and
+ the proliferation of weapons and violence.

Despite these interconnected threats to life and hope, God's creative work continues. Despite the ways we all contribute to these problems, God still invites each one of us to participate in the work of renewal. We must begin the work of renewing creation by being renewed in our own hearts and minds. We cannot help the world until we change our way of being in it."


Earlier in November, the council of bishops of the UMC produced a pastoral letter called "God's Renewed Creation: Call to Hope and Action." The bishops issued the letter as a challenge to all Methodists (w/ hearts "strangely warmed"?), and "all ecumenical and inter-religious partners and people of goodwill around the world." Theirs was an invitation calling all people to renew our hope and take action to transform the world.

The English version of the letter can be found at God's Renewed Creation, along with versions in Korean, French, Portuguese, Spanish, and German.

The bishops hope that congregations will read this letter and incorporate its challenge into liturgical worship during Advent. Check out more information here.

November 17, 2009

Room at the Table: on Christ the King Sunday and Harvest Thanksgiving

Soon and very soon, we will load our dining tables with baskets of bread and butter, Indian corn, and cranberry sauce. We will have turkey meat and mashed potatoes with gravy. We will dine on pumpkin pies and whipped cream or hot chocolate and creamed coffee. Perhaps we might have a steaming bowl of beef porridge with Chinese donuts. Maybe an extra large bowl of pho noodles with tripe and brisket. In whatever way we celebrate Thanksgiving, most of us will not fret about whether or not we will be fed, be clothed, be warmed. We will surely appreciate the abundance of food that will nourish our bodies, and we will certainly feast on the laughter, joy, and conversations in the presence of family and friends around the table.

Yet, as we move towards Thanksgiving, as we await the celebratory feasting, let us not forget that there are those who hunger. Starve. Those with empty stomachs growling as they line up at soup kitchens and food pantries in the cold Bay Area weather. Are there those around us who desire something more? Where we are now, who are the people in need of "something to eat, drink, or wear" (Mt 6:25 CEV)? Matthew 6:32 reminds us that "only people who don't know God are always worrying about such things".

If we examine this statement from our self-focused point of view, then we might frame the clause in this way: I worry about this and this and this, therefore I don't know God. That is a worrisome conclusion, indeed. Today, let us hear the invitation in a different way: People to whom we have not shown signs of God's love and mercy and grace might always worry about such things as this or this or that...

This Sunday is Christ the King Sunday, which is a major feast day in the Christian calendar, a day when we celebrate the just and merciful reign of God. Regardless of the diverse definitions and interpretations for the "kingship" of Jesus our Christ, this day should remind us to answer the invitation -- meet the challenge -- which we have been given as children of God and a community of faith: As we feast and dine with abundant thanks, how do we embody God's reign of peace, justice and love? How do we exemplify love, joy, peace to those around us? How do we help "people who don't know God" to worry less, to be clothed and fed, to be filled and warmed? Because doing that is bringing the reign of God into reality.

Perhaps there are those who hunger and worry because they need us to embody God to them, now. Perhaps there are those just waiting for us to show God's love in concrete ways that help them remember God. In this coming week, seriously consider the invitation for you to make room at the table...

Let us then continue united in prayer and faith, and realize more nd more the truth and mercy of God in our lives. For we are called above all to be signs of His mercy in the world, and our fidelity will in its turn be a small sign to others of His fidelity, not that our fidelity has nay value of itself, but it enables Him to give us richer blessings and to manifest Himself in doing good to us who are nothing. - Thomas Merton, The School of Charity, Pg. 261-262

November 12, 2009

Hannah the Prayer Warrior

1) As you read through the story of Hannah the first time around, what images come to mind? Think of all the different types of imagery that might leap out from the narrative: visual, auditory, olfactory, tactile, kinesthetic, etc.
2) For the second reading, what phrases capture your attention? What words did you concentrate on?
3) For the third reading, what ideas or thoughts or questions come to mind?

1 Samuel 1:4-20
1:4 On the day when Elkanah sacrificed, he would give portions to his wife Peninnah and to all her sons and daughters;

1:5 but to Hannah he gave a double portion, because he loved her, though the LORD had closed her womb.

1:6 Her rival used to provoke her severely, to irritate her, because the LORD had closed her womb.

1:7 So it went on year by year; as often as she went up to the house of the LORD, she used to provoke her. Therefore Hannah wept and would not eat.

1:8 Her husband Elkanah said to her, "Hannah, why do you weep? Why do you not eat? Why is your heart sad? Am I not more to you than ten sons?"

1:9 After they had eaten and drunk at Shiloh, Hannah rose and presented herself before the LORD. Now Eli the priest was sitting on the seat beside the doorpost of the temple of the LORD.

1:10 She was deeply distressed and prayed to the LORD, and wept bitterly.

1:11 She made this vow: "O LORD of hosts, if only you will look on the misery of your servant, and remember me, and not forget your servant, but will give to your servant a male child, then I will set him before you as a nazirite until the day of his death. He shall drink neither wine nor intoxicants, and no razor shall touch his head."

1:12 As she continued praying before the LORD, Eli observed her mouth.

1:13 Hannah was praying silently; only her lips moved, but her voice was not heard; therefore Eli thought she was drunk.

1:14 So Eli said to her, "How long will you make a drunken spectacle of yourself? Put away your wine."

1:15 But Hannah answered, "No, my lord, I am a woman deeply troubled; I have drunk neither wine nor strong drink, but I have been pouring out my soul before the LORD.

1:16 Do not regard your servant as a worthless woman, for I have been speaking out of my great anxiety and vexation all this time."

1:17 Then Eli answered, "Go in peace; the God of Israel grant the petition you have made to him."

1:18 And she said, "Let your servant find favor in your sight." Then the woman went to her quarters, ate and drank with her husband, and her countenance was sad no longer.

1:19 They rose early in the morning and worshiped before the LORD; then they went back to their house at Ramah. Elkanah knew his wife Hannah, and the LORD remembered her.

1:20 In due time Hannah conceived and bore a son. She named him Samuel, for she said, "I have asked him of the LORD."


+ How easy it was for Hannah's posture of prayer to be confused with drunkenness...
+ Is it because Eli is so disconnected from that kind of intense praying that he is unable (no longer able) to recognize/see Hannah's ardor, and therefore mistakes it for drunkenness?
+ Isn't it true that sometimes we define our practices of prayer in such limited ways that prevent us from appreciating the mystery and power of prayer?
+ Sometimes, we are reminded that people who are labeled/titled "holy" can still learn from the laity; in this narrative, Hannah manifests more faith, more earnestness, more holiness than Eli expected
+ How presumptuous of Eli to take Hannah to task for displaying drunkenness!
+ Elkanah: demonstrates attentiveness and a level of sensitivity almost unheard of in husbands within other narratives, yet he still is unable to understand Hannah's grief and deep hunger/desire; he recognizes her sadness and seeks to fill her emptiness with "double portions" and loves her, but still does not comprehend the source of her emptiness
+ While some narratives highlight wives' barrenness and often attribute it to sin committed on their part, this narrative lifts up Elkanah's love for his wife despite the fact that they have no children; no blame is heaped on her by him... or,
+ Or is it that he blames her but still loves her despite her barrenness? Is it possible for us to entertain the idea that he does not attribute her barrenness to her sin, like some interpretations are wont to do?
+ Could Elkanah, as husband, have done something to alleviate the rivalry between the two women? Questions of polygamy enter into the scene here... For years Hannah endured the pain caused by Elkanah's other wife, Peninnah... Might he have done something to change the situation? Or, did he do something to aggravate the situation?
+ Surely his favoritism of Hannah over Peninnah contributed and aggravated the rivalry between them... Doesn't this remind us of the story of Jacob, Rachel, and Leah?
+ Hannah's deep hunger could only be understood by God. Neither husband nor holy priest understood her bitterness, her sadness, her distress. Hannah knew that and recognized it.
+ Hannah's vow to God to dedicate her son, to commit him to a priestly vocation -- what an amazing sacrifice!
+ What if we were to think of prayer and define prayer in such radically different ways?